All you ever wanted was right in front of you and you couldn't see it because you kept changing your mind on what you wanted?
It's the same as when you plant a seed to grow and you keep checking to see if it has grown yet. You sir up the soil and uncover the plant to see if it's growing.
But, the seed has not had a chance to sprout. And you repeat this over and over in your mind and wonder why what you ask for has not come!
Start with what you been wanting and visualize having it. You must see yourself having it within before it appears without in your physical world.
The chair you sit on was first thought about within before it became without to sit upon.
Now begin to visualize your favorite flower and imagine it is just a seed you just planted. Giving it water to grow and good sunlight. See, the seed burst open and thousands of roots begin to reach out in the dark soil looking for life. Then the sprout begins to come through the soil. Then you see the stem coming up and leaves as it grows higher you see the flower bud and next emerge a beautiful flower. Now, you can smell the lovely fragrance.
Do this until you can master this simple way of visualization and more things will be easy to accomplish.
To learn this exercise, see the Master Key System by Charles F. Haanel chapter 7. Buy on Amazon!